New direction

This blog used to be about what was going on in my life as a way to document to the world new adventures (although I'm not very adventurous) and the thoughts that came along with those experiences. But recently, my focus has shifted a little. A few months ago I came across blogs written by both men and women struggling with infertility. It never crossed my mind that they existed. For months I read as a lurker the difficulties that come with infertility. I also came across other blogs, ones about parenting and life in general, that have caught my attention. So I've decided to share my story.

I was diagnosed with PCOS three years ago. I always knew that there was something about my body that was not working properly. That is in addition to this CRAZY illness I got for two months which left me bedridden that the Dr.'s never figured out. Anyway, I found the love of my life and we were married a year and half ago. Recently, we've started thinking about having children. So, I made a trip to ob/gyn to ask lots of questions. I've read lots of books and searched endlessly on the Internet for details about my condition, so I felt like I knew which questions to ask. She had many suggestions and was very supportive. But I am still unsure. Right now, and maybe this is wishful thinking, I just want to get my PCOS under control. I don't necessarily want to conceive. Maybe the underlying hope is that if my system fixes itself, then I'll conceive like 'normal' people. Plus I'm one of those people that takes their time making big life changing decisions and something about leaving conception up to chance sits well with me. However, knowing what I know about PCOS I understand that it's a naive thought. So, I told the Dr. that I didn't know. She put me on Metformin. We'll see how that goes. In addition I've been trying to combat the weight I gained when I got off the pill that regulated my hormones. If that weren't bad enough my hair is falling out (I really like my hair), I have acne all over my face, and my skin is oily. But, I'm not losing hope. And, if three months from now nothing has changed then HSG, Clomid, and whatever else they think is necessary will start. Right now age is on my side, but it won't be forever.